Mother
Teresa said, “The most terrible poverty is loneliness, and the feeling of being
unloved.” I am getting comprehended about this quote by tonight.
I
believe that the loneliness comes when you feel unloved and when there is no
one you love. I usually feel the way of
being “unloved”. When the time comes and gets the sense of being unloved, I am
completely down and no strengths to go forward.
Staying in a small
room makes me feel sick and drive me insane sometimes. The sickness of staying alone might be one of the reason of the loneliness , but it is not the main point of feeling lonely. Sometimes, I may get
mad and I may get tired of being alone. However, I prefer staying alone on my
bed with dim light and thinking about everything what I want to be and who I
want to be. At that time, I feel like an
angel who can fly in the sky. It is the greatest moment of myself being alone
in a small room.
Thinking about the one whom I love makes my dream bright and lift me up to the
top of the world. These pleasures give me more strengths and more hopes for my
future. In my own world, I imagine myself as an angel who can dream freely all
the way of my future life. I can feel and I can dream as I wish. I can go
backspace and undo myself. There is no limitation to stop this dream. As long
as I get the sense of feeling about something or somebody, my dream seems real.
Sometimes I smile. Sometimes I feel blank.
Sometimes I laugh. Sometimes I cry.
Sometimes all these moods come together at once and I totally get mad.
I
have suffered both experience of loneliness and being unloved. I value these
experiences because they let me stay in the imaginary world where I wish to be. If loneliness
and the feeling of being unloved are the most terrible poverty, I own them.
24/11/2012 (1.30 AM)
