"Nothing
is permanent except change."My life is like a range of mountains which
occurs based on my experiences. I noticed that nothing is static in one
place and everything is changed according to the time. All I noticed is
everything is changed, especially the people change, the feeling change, and the memories change in my life.
I
hate to see some particular things and people are changing. I just love them to be
the same as before, but it never come true as I wish. People change unexpectedly. The saddest thing is when the people you know become the people you knew. Through I refuse to accept it, I can't avoid this reality. I am a girl who
love to wait miracle to happen in life. Additionally, I am the one who is coward to get
out from unreality dream as well as afraid to see the changes because
all the changes usually blow me away and unable to stand up against it
sometimes. Since I am a girl who is seen by no one, who else I need to
care. I am tired from the illness of ignorance by some particular
people. As I recognize the feeling is like a wave which goes ups and
downs at particular time, I try to escape from the feeling that set between the ups and
downs sorrow and stay happily for my life . After I realize that
these up and down sorrow and happiness are the products of my thinking,
I madly wake up from my dream and attempt to walk away. If these
feeling are just the options, what I choose to be is mine. Frankly, I
may regard everythings goes wrong and nothing can be possible to stand
up myself. This unconscious mind control over my thinking and leads me
inseaty. Therefore, fighting self-conflict within myself becomes the
powerful tool to cross through the darkness of my life.
I force myself to think that I am the only master to manage my mind directly to happiness. Even if I know waiting the time for miracle and expect something from asshole may not bring me happiness, I am still dreaming about it. I have learn a lesson for not taking anything and anybody for granted because things are changed and people will leave or tired me eventually at some points , so I stab to enjoy every movement for today. What I have learn from it is as long as people are greedy and never satisfy for where they are and what they get, the grass will be always greener than the other side and jealously will kill them to the death.